Humility

This afternoon, I was broken. It is amazing how God leads you to a specific place at a specific time. I was catching up on the blogs of some friends and family when I came across a post on one of my church friend's blog. Anna of Journey With the Jenks was so sweet to mention my blog in one of her latest postings. I thought I would check out some of the other blogs that she enjoys. I remember the first time she mentioned Bring the Rain and was intrigued, but felt no need to investigate further. Apparently, it was not the right time for me to read it. Today, wanting to distract myself from the 24/7 feeding schedule, I thought I'd browse other blogs. Something drew me to this blog. Immediately, I was captured by the pictures and curious about the story. In a nutshell, Angie Smith, wife of one of the members of the Christian group Selah, shares the journey she experienced from joy to tragedy with her 5th pregnancy. The story, in a wordly sense, is in every possible way tragic, and yet, through her transparency, the reader can see an awesome, inspiring faith in God. I encourage you to visit her site and read her story. Through this, I am driven to humility.

I am driven to humility because God has chosen me to be the mother of my precious child. I know I am not capable apart from Him.

I am driven to humility because God has chosen to bless me with a child who has developed and is developing normally.

I am driven to humility because I have looked upon some of the inconveniences of motherhood with distaste.

I am driven to humility because I am surrounded by friends and family who support me spiritually, mentally, and physically.

I am driven to humility because we are able to provide food, shelter, clothing, and other necessities with a single income.

I am driven to humility because God has looked upon me and found me worthy of all of these blessings when I know apart from Jesus Christ, I am unworthy.

My heart bursts with love for my child. I don't know that I could comprehend such love before having her. Yet, this is nothing compared to the love God has for me. While I cling to my child and want her to never leave my presence, God sent his own Son out of the heavenly realm to die. My prayer is that I can continue to be humble and to recognize each blessing as the gift that it is. Thank you Jesus for finding me worthy.